Five Minute Friday" blog hop. This week's word is: Again. I have 5 minutes to write the first thoughts that come into my head, unedited and unscripted. Here we go.Today is my first time participating in a "
This morning I drove to the ocean. Again.
I keep finding myself here. It seems to call me throughout the week, saying "come." I used to not like the ocean; I am a "woodsy" girl myself. The ocean seemed so windy, so salty, and made my hair do crazy things.
But lately I find myself driving there, again and again.
The rain drizzled and the water was clear blue. I saw sea lions playing. No whales or dolphins today, who were probably seeking shelter from the pelting rain above them.
The weather and the water matched my mood. Cloudy, overcast, slightly raining.
I have been discouraged lately. Everytime I see someone else publish a book, it reminds me that mine is still sitting here. I am working hard but seeming to go nowhere. Doors are opening still, but I am experiencing writer's block, and worker's block, and mommy's block- and whatever else kind of "block" there is. I feel a little stuck. I wonder if this dream will ever become a reality, or will I fail as I have failed in many other ways in my life?
And yet when I sit at the ocean, I feel a calmness wash over me. I look at the vast expanse and am reminded of God's sovereignty, that He created it all. And He reminds me to get back up. Again.